Identity Crisis

I have decided to take a short break in the constructing of my new online identity. So many profiles, so many questions, so many little bits of information! I am grateful for the number of internet outlets there are for my creativity, but I’m beginning to feel like a string of passwords instead of a person.

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Sometimes You Have To Keep The Day Job

… when I look out at the indie music community, it seems as if we’re all trying to hide the fact that we don’t have hours and hours every day to devote to our craft. As if somehow that makes us less serious about music. I’ll tell you, nothing has made me more serious about music than the limited amount of time I have to pursue it.

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The Sweet Spot

The trick is to find the sweet spot and stay there for the evening. This is the place where I am pleasantly buzzed. Still coherent enough to carry on a conversation (albeit in a slightly slurred fashion), still on track to remember everything I did when I wake up in the morning, and yet blissfully free of the many things I’m usually worried about as I go about my day.

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Always With The Punching

Imagine instead that the thugs suddenly drop their guns, their faces quizzical, their blinding rage wiped away by a wave of tranquility. They are not sedated into unconsciousness to arise later still bitter, but rather awakened entirely from their cold trance of hatred. They can feel again.

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Blind Baseball

I can run around, waving my glove after each crack of the bat, hoping to broaden my chances of catching the ball by some tiny percentage. Or I can pick a spot in the middle somewhere, put my glove in my lap, and write some poems. Or eat a pretzel.

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Resentment

I tried to empty myself of my feelings of betrayal. I tried to concentrate on other areas of my life. I tried to breathe and relax and be present through yoga and music. I wanted to be filled with peace again. Filled with light and love, sated by food and liquor, fulfilled by fresh air! But I failed.

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